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14 Years Ago Today My Life was Forever Changed

Today is my late mother’s birthday. I will forever remember this day in the year 2005. It was the day that I found out I was pregnant. This was the biggest surprise that I have ever had in my life, and the best surprise of course. 🙂

I was absolutely shocked the day I found this out and it seems like it was just yesterday and a thousand years ago at the same time. It has been such a JOYous journey. Of course there have been the ups and the downs, but the JOY has been immense.

Sivanna was born premature at 32 weeks weighing 3lbs 15 oz. I can still see ‘my little bird’. She was so tiny and we fed her with a syringe.

This whole experience makes me think of two things:

1) Vulnerability

2) Faith & Trust

Not only was my little girl so young and vulnerable but so was I. I felt fragile and my whole world as I knew it changed in that moment when she was born. What I thought would be a JOYous time was actually a very fearful time and I had to have Faith & Trust and that was not easy. One thing that really helped me through this time was a voice that spoke to me one night before I even knew that I was pregnant, but was pregnant… The voice said “Don’t worry I am coming and everything will be okay”. I will never forget the night I heard that energetic voice while gazing at the stars from my hottub. Those words were a catalyst in my getting through the 39 days of Sivanna being in the Neonatal Intensive Care Unit (NICU) until I brought her home.

Another thing that helped me was her Dad who would say “Honey, some day this will just be a memory”. And that turned out to be true.

Me holding my little bird

When I look at this picture and into my eyes I see the fear and yet I see the strength that got this woman through this to what is now just a memory. There were so many great lessons through this struggle and I appreciate every one. I believe in life the greatest trials lead us to the greatest JOYs.

I am forever amazed and how tiny her hand was. A sight I will always remember. That tiny little hand now makes art, scratches my back and also holds my hand. ❤

I am also grateful for so many things in my life. I am grateful for my daughter Sivanna Rose. I am grateful for the amazing health care that we received in this beautiful country. I am grateful that that fearful time is indeed now a memory and I’m excited. I am excited for another day on earth. I am excited for what lies ahead for myself and my family.

And Mom, I send you Happy Heavenly Birthday wishes. It will always be special to me that your birthday was the day I found out my life was to be forever changed with the gift of a daughter of my own.

My Mother and I sometime long ago. She died in 1993. Interestingly my daughter’s school is in the background here.
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How Miraculous!!!!!!

Today, while organizing some things, I dropped a packet of seeds and they fell onto a table. I think they are zucchini seeds. I marveled at how these tiny, tiny, seeds become gorgeous zucchinis. In that moment I reflected on the miracle of all living things and that we too come from a tiny, tiny, egg that meets a tiny, tiny, sperm. All of this is miraculous to me!

I also thought about how the seeds produce and they make more seeds to recreate the miracle. WOW! I hadn’t really pondered on that before in such a way and I opened myself up to the profoundness of it.

It got me thinking…… this is like our ideas and our dreams. If we have ideas (seeds) but we don’t plant them, they die and they do not grow and they do not reproduce. This is huge. So then how important is it to nurture your ideas, wants and desires? Super important! These seeds can create worlds but we need to plant them so they continue to give.

I also thought about the biblical saying about the faith of a mustard seed so I googled and there are a few but this one wowed me: ” “The kingdom of heaven is like a mustard seed, which a man took and sowed in his field; and this is smaller than all other seeds, but when it is full grown, it is larger than the garden plants and becomes a tree, so that THE BIRDS OF THE AIR come and NEST IN ITS BRANCHES.

This one kind of brings it all home for me. If we can produce life from a tiny, tiny, seed and life is a miracle so be it when we ‘sow it in our field’ or our mind! If we can have the faith of a tiny, tiny, mustard seed, which is smaller than all other seeds, but when it is full grown, is larger than the garden plants and becomes a tree (larger than life) and then the birds can nest in it’s branches …… the seed feeds the cycle of life and rebirth. WOW!

I have a whole new respect for the power of a tiny, tiny, seed. I will remind myself that my thoughts are tiny, tiny, seeds that can grow to huge proportions and that can do great things in the world! I will use them wisely and I will have faith in the power of tiny, tiny, seeds. 🙂

Be sure you plants seeds that you want to grow. Let’s not die with our seeds still in us, shall we? 🙂 Happy Gardening!

Divine Signs, Rainbows

Rainbow Messenger

In times of strife sometimes we need a sign.

On Monday of this week. I finished my sixth class, entitled “The Meaning of Life” in my first round of Infinite Possibilities classes. It was a magic moment and I think my students really enJOYed the workshop. In fact, there were some pretty major shifts that happened for some of them.

In the last class we cover that life indeed does have adversity and challenges and that these are a normal part of life. They make us stronger in fact, but they can be very challenging indeed.

Last night while driving in my car, I was pondering on some challenging situations and reflecting on hopeful and positive outcomes. It was one of those moments when you are kind of like “please give me a sign”… you know those kind of moments when your strength is not enough but you need an extra boost of Hope or Faith? Well I got just that….

I rounded a corner and saw this:

I had to pull over and take a picture. It was just what I needed. And this rainbow stayed with me until I reached my destination!

And to make it even better, this morning when I went to Facebook and opened it, the first picture I saw was this rainbow that a friend took. It was there right in my face. The same rainbow that I saw taken by my friend! It was like a sign all over again and just reinforced everything.

I found this blog post explaining rainbows and there is really cool info in here

https://www.universeofsymbolism.com/rainbow-symbolism.html

Like: “Rainbows bring the promise that the troubles of today will surely come to pass, hold strong in your faith and vision, and the rainbow with bring fresh beginnings, and new prosperity”.

And: “The symbolism a Rainbow intuitively tells us to hold on to HOPE, to believe beyond a shadow of a doubt that sacred blessings open to us when we are following our hearts desire.”

I remember when I was pregnant and seeing a double rainbow while driving. My daughter ended up being premature and that was a tough time. Remembering that rainbow helped me get through that. Somehow I knew things would be ok.

I hope you too take comfort and strength in the signs offered to you. Perhaps this blog post is a sign for you and I hope it becomes the strength for you today that you need. I have lovinging infused these words with strength, hope, and LOVE ❤ which are all sent to you that are reading these words right now.

With Much LOVE & JOY,

Maggie

Maggie Holbik is a Certified Life Coach, Certified Infinite Possibilities Trainer and Board Certified Nutritionist who loves signs, messages, and anything divinely beautiful that raises our vibes and gives us HOPE!

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Self-Love as Medicine

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I wrote a blog post over at my other site MaggiesVitaminsBlog.com and thought I should share the post here as well. I had a lot of beautiful feedback on it and it is my Hope that someone can benefit from it here as well so here is the link to En-JOY!
https://maggiesvitamins.blog/2018/10/02/self-love-as-medicine/